trishia-hysteria

   Yesterday I had a rough time, even thinking about it makes me feel sad. But I'm feeling better and hopefully it'll stay this way for like ever..
   But the thing is, I don't want to study anymore, I don't want to do my 'mémoire', the EPP and all that stuff.. I don't feel like it anymore. I know I'm close to the end and if I finish I'll be glad, but the idea seems to even repulse me from doing it. Perhaps I should just start and really concentrate, that way, I'll be able to do something... But the feeling ain't there...

   First of: I'm a fan of Britney Spears since she started singing Baby, one more time and it was on the radio. I say it and you should believe it because this won't change for awhile!

   I just can't take it anymore: why people can't let her live her life in peace??? F*cking paparazzi are always around her, she cannot move a toe without being photographed from all angles by hundreds of those stupid people who don't have a life so they steal someone else's.
   Look at what the medias've done to her: can't you see she's not well? Can't you see she needs to live her own life? Her PRIVATE life? She cannot take care of her kids like a normal mom because they always show what she does wrong or clumsily, like any other mother! For X's sake, nobody's perfect!!
   Why do you think she's crying so much at the moment? Guess:
            - she cannot see her children
            - she has had enough of her single movements being exposed to everybody
            - she needs rest and peace
   ALL of this of course: how can you live when you cannot do anything without an group of savage peope around you you cannot even go to your car??

   I don't understand how people can be that insensitive, mean and crazy. They.. GOSH, I'm so angry!!! The law in the US is shit if it cannot protect her from all that. I know celebrities "need" to be phtographed so they stay famous but like this, no it's inmanageable.
   Anyway, she kust need to be left alone with the support of her family and REAL friends... Why don't you just do that?

   I really do now more than ever: guess what? My car is dead, and when I say dead, I mean it doesn't work anymore!!! As if putting it into a garage two weeks ago didn't do any good. I don't know why but I suspect the guy of the first garage to break it so I should get back to him! This is so shitty especially now that I put more than €200 in it! I hate it, I just want to break it in thousand of pieces. Don't worry, I'm just saying that cos I've just got the news In a way I don't really want another car, it's so much money and I like to ride the bus. I'll see...

   or doing something else while I should and must do another thing more important!! That's me! Grr, how angry at myself I am right now!!! I'm always doing that and then I stress and do things rapidly, not always badly but why? This is stupid, I should be more serious because I will get it back someday!
   For example today instead of doing the laundry and getting ready to go after work, I stayed on my computer more than I should. Of course now the laundry is done and my bag also but this is just so stupid!
   Anyway! I really have to change that very very very bad habit! Grr!!!

   The trip wasn't as bad as the trip to go to my Mom's, at least I didn't fall asleep while driving. 
   There were few cars on the road and I didn't have much traffic in Paris, so that was kool. Though there were lots of cops everywhere trying to catch people speeding... And I think they got me. I'm not sure but there was once like a flash, but as I drove under a bridge, I don't know if it was a flash or something from the sun because it happened again when I drove under another bridge. Well it looked the same...
   And then when it was dark and  I was almost there, I saw a car and I think what looked like binoculars... This time I'm sure there were cops, and as I know I was speeding, this is so bad!!!!

   I have to ask my Mom again whether I've got a fine or not. Hope not!