trishia-hysteria

   Just some support really: I want to stop freaking out for minor things and stop stressing like a madwoman... I'm sure I'll get over it but I just need to get more self-confidence...

   I don't like that feeling, it's the most weird and unhappy one I know. But it seems to come back to me everytime I'm here in this narrow place I don't like so much anymore. I've been feeling this way for quite a time now and even sometimes angry and upset without knowing why. I guess I just need more space and especially company.
   I don't go out often, I like to have my time as well, but I surely need to be more social as in companionable.

   In fact I need company in my 9m², I know it's not possible but a cat would be just fine with me, he'd have all the love a cat can have and I'll take him/her out and next year I'll leave this shitty 9m²... All right all right! I know I can't! Why did I chose another 9m², tell me, tell me!!!

I need SPAAACE!!!

   and I'm sure I'm not the only one. Peter and I had such a wonderful time again... I wish it could last more and more and more... He tells me to be patient and I'm willing to do that but I long for the time with him, being with him all the time, sharing an address together and stop the sad feeling of saying good-bye at the platform 5 every monday...

   I know you will read this and you know how I feel. I want to be patient and I think I am but I love you so much, I want to spend every second with you and just love like we did this past weekend...